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No matter how careful you are, there’s going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn’t experience it all. There’s that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should’ve been paying attention.

- Chuck Palahniuk

Advice on the work life trappings

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Happiness (to me)

I found this list that I wrote way back when. 

My Dad said to me once, out of the blue, "you have to enjoy it, all the time, because it goes so fast and we can take that for granted." It was advice that struck me as both simultaneously inspiring and terrifying but it pushed me to try and cultivate a sense of appreciation.  In dire moments I hang on to Dad's words because when it comes down to it, we are incredibly lucky people.

What are the little things that make you happy?

To be

I was grappling with thoughts on trueness to self and turning away from all the self consciousness and social climbing bullshit (or at least trying to). I want every action I make to be because I truly mean it. I want to have clearer ideas about the person I am and what I strive for. Alas my discombobulated thoughts came out awkward, fumbly and jumbled. Then I stumbled across this list in my drafts inbox. It seemed to sum up everything I wanted to say, and far more eloquently. If you know who wrote it please email me, I would love to credit whoever did. 

• Never depend on your eternal surroundings for happiness, nor another person
• With every act you carry out, whether it be washing your hands, feeding your cat, holding someone's hand; have passion
• Now is all that matters, you can always deal with the present moment. Don't be crippled by pasts events/future
• Be open minded about everything. Let go, go with the flow. Life is really interesting and constantly stimulating this way
• Respect all living creatures.
• Adore your own company
• Embrace strangers, smile with them
• Be grateful for everything
• Embrace relativity
• Humans are incredibly intricate yet simultaneously, very simple. Keep this in mind
• Everyone is having a different experience, don't expect others to reciprocate your own frame of mind
• You will never love another until you love yourself
• Everything you can imagine is real
• Everything is the force of life, you are the force of life
• Cook meals naked, embrace nudity
• Never, ever settle for mediocrity
• Don't pollute your mind
• Love your job, give it your heart and soul. Never do a job just for loot. Have passion for it
• Always expect the unexpected, Always!
• Share baths
• Keep a tape recorder by your bed to record spontaneous epiphanies and dreams
• Don't obsess over the nature of time, you will lose your mind
• If you want someone attention, bite them
• Chill the fuck out, keep it real